Poofing in and out ~

Hi everyone :) , i haven't updated in a long long time reason being is simple i've been working for the past week and its pretty good i guess, only problem for me is what to eat everyday for lunch and dinner i think i know every single alley or back lane hawker stalls by now.Oh right , let me tell you a little about work. I work as a cashier not very G-L-A-M but meh its an okay job. I touch the greens and be nice to rude customers and deal with annoying kids. The very first day i got to the place i was treated really nicely by my senior who taught me. The other staff and supervisors are friendly with condition ( not sure how to say it 0_0) , oh did i mention Matt ditched me here and went to work for the lala's in Pelangi >_> .

There's not much to say about the work place, its definitely cold like really cold , not sure if the people who manage the central air conditioning system is trying to freeze us to death but yeah its very very cold . Working really does give you perspective on other people who you've never met before like , there is a really clear line when your being a friend or a boss , sometimes they joke and sometimes it's a deadly aura (atleast it is deadly to me... ). Before this i thought being a cashier was easy just collect "ze moneh" and give "ze zhange" and press the button . It's not easy D:< NOT EASY at all. For example, i'm not sure if the entire adult community is stupid or retarded or just plain ignorant to the sign " COUNTER CLOSED" they just keep lining up like idiots when the sign is already there, oh and there are so many buttons to press just to get the cash drawer out, not to mention getting the float(change for the customers for the next day) ready , jeez that's the one thing i still am not liking.

Yeah so anyways, it looks like the past BoB meeting didn't really turned out well and i just got some disturbing news . Sigh what is the youth turning into really ? Sometimes i still wonder why we continue because no one ever seems to care. But ah well , God has a plan , i guess ... i HOPE .

Hopefully the next meeting would end in a better result.

xoxo

Meli.

Changes

Hello.
Its been awhile since i've written anything,everything is normal a few minor changes though.
There's a new youth leader , yup Steve stepped down after 5 years ?
The new leader isn't so bad i suppose, much more organize and structure compared to Steve
but there are discontentment's, but hey no one is ever going to satisfy everybody's needs.

Looks like everyone is starting to go on with their life and it feels like i'm the only one stuck here in JB waiting for my intake to come, did i mention which college i have chosen?
Taylor's Lakeside Campus. *the brat school* XD
i'm not a brat ... maybe ? okay maybe a little princess about certain stuff but i know how to be independent and besides its not like i don't know how to take public transport.
Charlene is there and maybe Sue Roe will be with us ?? I'm not sure.

OH, i got a job part-time as a cashier .__. like seriously its not as easy as i thought it would be, so many buttons to memorize and i have to smile and be naise to rude customers =.=" , it's probably not as bad as tolerating horrible customers when your a waiter but ya know' its roughly almost the same except you can't spit in their food because they buy books and stationary ? Matt got the easy job =.= and ditched me , that meanie.

Anyways, people are starting to get on my nerves these days , not sure if PMS or its really just them being so freaking annoying that i can't understand their sheer stupidity or just being a fucking douche bag. Yes it is part of it does refer to douche, but because it's really just him being a real douche when i speak and or type for that matter, I'm so sorry that I'm not up to your fucking perfect English standards but you know what ?

NOBODY LOVES A GRAMMAR NAZI

On another happier side, I've just watched the latest episode of HIMYM and it was awesome !
Spoiler alert!!
Lily and Marshall have a son named Marvin Waitforit Erricson
Ted is still single and we just found who is the "mother" after the many gf's he had
Barney purpose to Quin but .... later he's in the church with Robin?
Its kinda confusing but eh i cannot wait for the next episode !!!
Finally after so long, they are together !!!

Barney is just so cute even if he is gay in real life.

kay thats it.

xoxo
Meli.

p.s. I need to go shopping D:

Awkward moments..

I knew it was going to happen and i thought i was prepared to face it, how life ironically turns everything on you or if not life then GOD the almighty. NO, don't forgive me for using the Lord's name in vain, anyways it happen just an hour ago, dad came back hungry so i whipped up some korean noodles for him and for me *.... i was hungry.....* , he asked what am i doing with my life and what are my future plans and what was i going to study, looks like he brought up the subject on what i am going to study a bit earlier than expected, after i answered him everything just fell into silence and i didn't really know what to say afterwards. It sucks to not be able to say what i really want to because of the guilt. It sucks to want something so bad but no supports you, no one truly believes that you can do it, nobody thinks that what i want could maybe just maybe be a success. It entirely sucks when even your own parents think that your too much of a pussy to do it, just because it doesn't bring big bucks in the future and its quote " a man's world", FUCK YOU people who think it is, having balls(literally a fucking penis) doesn't mean you can succeed.

I mean seriously ? no i'm not a feminist, i think every guy should be manly and tough ( is that being a sexist ?) okay that didn't make sense, nevermind forget that. Sigh nothing will change unless someone does something about it right ? So i'm trying to change something , so what if 90% of them are males.... >_>" . Ranting is probably not going to help with any of this but you know what ? Bitch you better pray i don't succeed, because if i do , i'm bloody hell sure i'm not going to be modest and say "Oh nah you didn't mean to hurt my feelings, you're just looking out for me" OH HECK NO i would fucking yell,post,publish it everywhere that you were wrong and rub it in your face until rubbing it in your face is no longer fun. Yeah i'm superbly petty and grudgy so don't expect a sorry until i finish rubbing it in your face.

xoxo

Meli.

Hypnotize

Hello! , lately i've been stuck in a part of Youtube where i didn't know existed its like one of those discoveries that shocks your world. I was introduced to the band "Trading yesterday" by a friend of mine (Matt), creds to him for intro-ing me to such a lovely band, a video lead to many more videos for the pass several days or week. I've never heard such a collection of beautiful songs that represent both heart and soul ( no not jazz ), compared to what the radio plays which now i can safely agree it can never be equaled to what i've heard the pass few days, anyways this post is partly only about how i've just discovered that wonderful and hypnotic part of youtube.

If you have the time i would recommend you hear this band "Trading yesterday"- shattered and this guy named Jason Walker - Everbody Lies, You're Missing, and Cry, and OH not to forget this song A drop in the Ocean - Ron Pope , the list is kinda of endless, most of the songs are a little sad but they do get you thinking "What the fuck have i been listening to all this time" , True story ! and no i still cannot listen to metal =.=" i will never get use to the deafening screams (some of them) of the vocalist and the guitar solo's that i will never understand why guys think that they're "EPIC" . Sorry, i guess my ears are just not meant for metal music.

Easter and updates

I'm probably a bit late to wish you guys happy easter XD ! Easter was quite normal, like every year the youth's would band together and collect donations and give out the candles for both mandarin and english mass. We got free dinner though =P so i guess its not such a bad deal considering the fact that me and my sister got to eat Hot wings XP .

I also recently finally dragged my butt to the Berjaya centre to take the "Ujian Komputer" for the Undang test. It was a long overdued process that i should have gone to weeks ago but no matter i am, determine to finish my learning license by the end of this month , April.

On another not so happy note, counting it all together this year itself 16 people's funeral, the latest one was.... well i think we all know who, regrettably i didn't get a chance to see this person off i was told the night before but i thought they would still keep him until today to cremate him. When i was aware that they weren't it was a little too late . I can only pray for him and keep my guilt from eating me alive.

Its probably one of the shortest updates but it is an update ~

xoxo

Meli.

Currently ...

Well i can safely say i'm okay with the things that have happened so far, like the results of my studies after 5 years not really the best not the worst i could have gotten, the first few days after the result was terrible everyone avoided me, just some clueless ones who didn't know i was having a bad day dared to ask "so how was it ?" God help them i was still in control and did not strangled them to death. It took awhile to digest what i got from the brown paper envelope that potentially could get me into a good college. It was chaos in my mind on the day itself, the next day was not any better i didn't eat and shut out anyone who wanted to "talk" or rather pry for the results that i got.

After about almost 4 days ? i couldn't sleep one night till 5am in the morning i just continued to read one of the chic flicks i bought about a month ago and have not finished reading, strangely the story seem to relate. It did get me thinking and slowly i guess over the wee hours in the dawn i accepted the whole situation and rationally thought it out. It really didn't matter what i got anymore i know what i want for myself in the future and i would get it * sound so Lan ci* !

I still have yet to congratulate my other friends who got straight A's, there are however some people who arent satisfied with what they've gotten and even dare to post it on facebook with the hopes of getting sympathy for the lack of a "+" in one of their A's seriously? Bitch ? or even those who got more than 5A can you so kindly shut the fuck up about how life is so unfair -.- deal with it.

Anyways :) Congrats to all who got their straight A's and the rest :) !

xoxo

Meli.

Of Tumbleweeds and Dandelions.

“It was a mistake," you said. But the cruel thing was, it felt like the mistake was mine, for trusting you.”

Normally i would usually object to using K-pop idols or K- people for that matter but no matter what Yoo Seung Ho is undeniably attractive even if he has girly looking hair and looks gayish ?

Yeah it's weird, but the K-drama was seriously awesome, both the action and the sentimental stuff , its a 2010 drama if i'm not mistaken.

Ah okay yeah i know update on the things that matter and not some K-drama that most people will roll their eyes at. So February has gone by pretty quick , nothing much happen except for a few fights and random Glee awesome-ness ( cue rolling of the eyes) GLEE IS AWESOME ! I just wished the producer would stop auto-tuning their voice so much.

I hate Sebastian and his smirky little troll face i wish i could punch it -.- there should be an episode about him getting beaten up for no reason at all, just pure violence and teen-adolesence rage :D that would probably be my favourite episode of Glee.

Er i bet what you're wondering wtf does that picture even mean, i'm just going to tell you that he's so hawt that i just wanted to put him up on my blog XD haha but the words do mean something though, it's been so rough for me because well my best friend just ditched me, not that i want to whine about it, but it does hurt no matter what i think and no matter how much i try to deny it :/

first world problems i know, i mean i could be starving in Africa right now and here i am complaining that a person is being a bitch to me ? I don't know, these feelings just suddenly came up even after i've buried it as deep as i can not as a grudge or anything but i guess i trust less these days and i'm not sure how to put it in words ? It's probably a relapse from the last time i've felt this way without telling anyone and its leaking out, not sure if these rants will even make sense when i re-read what i've wrote in the future but i hope by then this feelings of insecurities and feeling betrayed would be non-existent.

xoxo

Meli.