Awkward moments..

I knew it was going to happen and i thought i was prepared to face it, how life ironically turns everything on you or if not life then GOD the almighty. NO, don't forgive me for using the Lord's name in vain, anyways it happen just an hour ago, dad came back hungry so i whipped up some korean noodles for him and for me *.... i was hungry.....* , he asked what am i doing with my life and what are my future plans and what was i going to study, looks like he brought up the subject on what i am going to study a bit earlier than expected, after i answered him everything just fell into silence and i didn't really know what to say afterwards. It sucks to not be able to say what i really want to because of the guilt. It sucks to want something so bad but no supports you, no one truly believes that you can do it, nobody thinks that what i want could maybe just maybe be a success. It entirely sucks when even your own parents think that your too much of a pussy to do it, just because it doesn't bring big bucks in the future and its quote " a man's world", FUCK YOU people who think it is, having balls(literally a fucking penis) doesn't mean you can succeed.

I mean seriously ? no i'm not a feminist, i think every guy should be manly and tough ( is that being a sexist ?) okay that didn't make sense, nevermind forget that. Sigh nothing will change unless someone does something about it right ? So i'm trying to change something , so what if 90% of them are males.... >_>" . Ranting is probably not going to help with any of this but you know what ? Bitch you better pray i don't succeed, because if i do , i'm bloody hell sure i'm not going to be modest and say "Oh nah you didn't mean to hurt my feelings, you're just looking out for me" OH HECK NO i would fucking yell,post,publish it everywhere that you were wrong and rub it in your face until rubbing it in your face is no longer fun. Yeah i'm superbly petty and grudgy so don't expect a sorry until i finish rubbing it in your face.

xoxo

Meli.