Past Present Future ?

I've been meaning to write this feelings out since .. i dont know really
How many times ..wait
Has the future ever crossed your mind ? pftt Of course it has
well recently i've been drifting off into these daydreams of the future
then i started thinking and i cried -.- yes typical me
I just wonder,
What would life be like in the future ?
Am i still going to keep my BFF"s?
Will I succed ?
Can i stand on my own two feet ?
Yeah....future seems like a pretty scary for me
I'm not sure what i what to do aswell,my parents somehow doesn't approve me of going into
the cooking course ...sigh
Money?
Love?
Life ?
What would it all be like ?
even now letting go of the past isnt an easy thing
what more in the future ?
Sigh... Letting go ....
damn what a dreading subject to even think about
I guess everybody has a hard time with letting go of something that is important to them
:/ really sometimes i wonder what would it be like
without my Bff's , Kor ,Dave-baka, Diva and my friends?
What if they had to leave someday ? I know i'll instantly cry and just keep crying
Been having these strange dreams :/
saddening and heart-wenching ones where i wake up crying
i think i'm going to be a bunny soon with red red eyes
gosh espcially this dream where Cc and ryry abandon me D:
I was yelling after them and they just turned their backs on me
and continue walking without looking back D:
and they slowly fade
Then i'd be in the airport where Kor is leaving D:
and i'm standing there but invisible and he can't hear or see me at all
and he just turns and sighs and leaves....V_V
I cried soo much espicially for this dream
GAH i hate this dream
HATE IT
HATE IT
HATE IT
D: but it keeps replaying sigh.
Well drop a msg at the c-box if u have anything to say :]
be nice

xoxo's
MeLi.v