..what happen to promises ?

i ask that whenever i cry
Why are you so weak?
maybe not physically but emotionally
i mean yeah okay i think its kinda selfish for me
to rant this kind of problems when the people of Japan
who were all recently just strucked Tsunami are probably
suffering from the ice cold weather
and here i am being a whiny brat complaining about every little thing

sigh
i found out something that was suppose to be the past but now
has resurfaced into another emotional turmoil
I've never really stop and really see what the eyes of the character's
of my fave anime looks like
they told me the author of Naruto died ...
and so today i just briefly browsed through the pictures and manga's
i have of them mainly
itachi and kakashi as they are my favorites
I realized that both itachi and kakashi has soulless eyes

somehow even if i was a complete idiot about manga
the eyes really speaks
soulless
it looks like one of those eyes who drags you into a pit of confusion and pitch black
it just drowns you in sorrow .
maybe it reflects on what i feel right now ,
life isnt a bed of roses and i completely agree with that
but there's only so much sadness and grief one can take
i wont be surprise if i died in 10 years time
with all this pain

this picture is where itachi gave his last breath to his little brother
he poked sasuke's forehead in recognizing the man his little brother has become
he lived and suffered for a better future for his little brother
and willingly let his little brother kill him , he died in his brothers arms.

its possibly the most inspiring story of a sibling relationship
the elder one suffers for the younger one
so i think is that what Danna's doing ? Is that what kor's doing ?
really why did they change ? yeah its about them
i know its the past , and it resurfaced
i cry every time i hear and think about them
and now its a little festering bacteria growing and eating up my insides

i need to run in the rain one day
just run and cry in it
maybe i'll feel better sigh

xoxo
meli

ps. sorry to my dear readers :/ i know i'm being a whiny brat , hopefully the pain doesnt last