I dont know what to do anymore

Hey , Sigh
Yea i'm sighing alot these days i dont know why
I feel so utterly lost and ... just feel so lonely
I dont know i just feel it
Maybe its just my Mood swings after all i'm PMS-ing rite now
So exams been around the corner ,
I never studied for it ...
Yea so i'm practically screwed and i really dont know how to tell my dad and mum
i dont want to continue learning add maths and i really want to persue a career in culinary arts but somehow my parents dont really like the idea ... Sigh
i dont know what to do
I feel like crying my eyeballs out right now
I cant cope with the science sub but if i backed down all the 8 months of practice and the tuitions all will be flushed down the drain
I'll be dissapointing so many people who had hopes on me D:
i really feel liek sucummbing into the idea of sucide right now ,
I'm just not the studying type no matter how hard i try i just cant ,
Imagine the dissapointment and all the sighing faces
That'd be like the worst nightmare
I'll be letting down kor D: , Dave , Ryan , Cc , diva any everyone else
I just cant take it anymore
Life seeems so much more painful and harder to get by these days
sigh.

xoxo
MeLi <3